How many times is it possible to walk into the fire?
How many times can we walk out?
The Phoenix is legended to have lived 600 years, it dies to the fire and is constantly regenerated to rise up out of the ashes, anew!
I, like most of us, have walked into fire and not just once!
What is it that needs to die and be reborn and die again?
From a very early age as we start to distinguish between "me" and other, our connectedness with the Oneness breaks and we enter into the illusion of separation and the development of the ego. Our parents and extended family firstly, and then society at large begin to condition us to conform to their preprogrammed standards. Labels of race, gender, religion, class etc are stuck on us and most importantly we become identified with our name. There are rules to be obeyed as well as moral and ethical standards to uphold.
As the layers of conditioning build up we lose touch with our innate wisdom, our inner guidance system gets intercepted by external frequencies. Life becomes almost robotic, we know that if we behave a certain way we will get a specific result and on the whole this works. We choose partners, jobs, friends, hobbies and even clothes that are socially acceptable. The appearance is that of living the dream.
We are born in Oneness and most often die in separation. But between birth and death run cycles of destruction and creation and that is only if we are lucky enough.
Lucky enough to hear the calling, some might say, of your soul, to experience more, to open more, to become vulnerable, exposed and available to some undefined something else. If we feel the yearning and follow the seeker, life will present us with untold opportunities to discard our layers of protection.
There is a saying that goes, we are never given more than we can handle, it doesn't always seem that way. If we have chosen a rebirth by fire, the pain can be immense as the outer layers of the mind are seared off, and the new tender layers exposed. Then the holding period while the outer shell hardens a little, just enough to re-emerge with the living.
The more often we do it, the easier it gets, as with anything, and the faster the process.
I have found myself walking into the fire, I can't say unknowingly, and stood in the hell where it's hard to breathe with the pain of love lost, love betrayed, dreams shattered, promises broken. The only and quickest way through it, I have found, is to feel it fully, allow it to consume you, engulf you and burn off everything that no longer serves you. Without resistance, without a story, with just the breath. Breathe into the pain, even if it's in gulps at first, those gulps, like sobs, will subside and eventually become deeper and more even, with an odd sense of calm. The more we are able to embrace the burn and just be fully present with it, the faster we transmute the energy.
Just be with it! As it burns! As the outer layers turn to ash!
For your rebirth.